I don't really know whether to cry or put a smile on my face and pat my shoulder.
To put it shortly, good grades with bad GPA don't go together.
My cumulative GPA for October 2011 was 2.027. For April 2012, I collected my GPA of 2.339. Yes, it's a great jump, I know! But if you look closely at what my GPA is, you will realize how low it actually is... Despite scoring A, B and C for Taxation, Computerized Accounting and Advanced Accounting respectively, my GPA didn't come out as I have expected. Guess I had high expectations of myself. I aimed to secure GPA of 3+. 2.339 is way behind 3.
It's definitely not my April grades' fault but my last year's low grades. I regretted for my lack of hard work for last year's exams so much that I pushed myself hard to do better. With the help of my new interpreter, I worked hard, not giving up. I ignored distractions as much as I could. I got myself out of TV world for a month. I remembered making a promise to myself that I wouldn't watch another Korean drama once I was done with Sungkyunkwan Scandal drama and I did, for a month. Staying put on my studying chair, I studied until late, stubbornly ignoring my papa who constantly tried to tell me to sleep early. I kept texting my classmates for explanation on Advanced Accounting answers. I knew texting and reading explanations via SMSes/Whatsapp was a challenge but I endured. Within a month, I turned into a nocturnal girl. Strangely, I had an ability to pay attention in class despite sleeping late nearly daily. I thank God for the strength I had.
I remembered on the day I took my Advanced Accounting exam, I met Ms BH who was my interpreter, for another consultation in the school library. She saw me practising diligently on my weak topic questions. She asked me to stop practising and take a rest. I shook my head. But I finally admitted to her that I was tense. Worried that my cramps might re-appear anytime during my exam and also my ability to finish it on time, and what grade I would get. She told me that she had belief in me that I would be able to get an A. She told me I could do it!
To my surprise, she asked if she could pray for me. I nodded. In a second, her hand was upon my right shoulder, her eyes closed with her mouth moving as she prayed. She didn't sign though. I was awkward despite knowing she's also a christian. I kept my eyes open and silently said my own prayer while being prayed by her. She gave me a pat before she left.
After my exam, I cried as I was mad at myself that I failed to finish the very last question of the paper. It was the topic I had been drilling for two weeks. It was also the topic I drilled on the day itself at the library. I felt wasteful. Nonetheless, I pushed for my next and last paper (Taxation) and yes, I aced it. In the end, I scored a C for Advanced Accounting. Way beyond my interpreter's expectation and mine.
Overall, the only two goals I had been aiming which was to prove to papa that although I was once a falling star, I wanted to show him that I am able to shine once I bucked up. I just wanted to prove him wrong. I didn't want to fail again. I was once bitten, twice shy. I wanted to show that I will forever be the shining star he knows.
Another goal was obviously to do better which I have achieved. I secured an A which I have never got last year. I thank God for recognising my hard work and for the strength He gave me. Without Him, I don't know if I could still better myself. Thanks to everyone for your endless support, prayers and encouragement! (:
To put it shortly, good grades with bad GPA don't go together.
My cumulative GPA for October 2011 was 2.027. For April 2012, I collected my GPA of 2.339. Yes, it's a great jump, I know! But if you look closely at what my GPA is, you will realize how low it actually is... Despite scoring A, B and C for Taxation, Computerized Accounting and Advanced Accounting respectively, my GPA didn't come out as I have expected. Guess I had high expectations of myself. I aimed to secure GPA of 3+. 2.339 is way behind 3.
It's definitely not my April grades' fault but my last year's low grades. I regretted for my lack of hard work for last year's exams so much that I pushed myself hard to do better. With the help of my new interpreter, I worked hard, not giving up. I ignored distractions as much as I could. I got myself out of TV world for a month. I remembered making a promise to myself that I wouldn't watch another Korean drama once I was done with Sungkyunkwan Scandal drama and I did, for a month. Staying put on my studying chair, I studied until late, stubbornly ignoring my papa who constantly tried to tell me to sleep early. I kept texting my classmates for explanation on Advanced Accounting answers. I knew texting and reading explanations via SMSes/Whatsapp was a challenge but I endured. Within a month, I turned into a nocturnal girl. Strangely, I had an ability to pay attention in class despite sleeping late nearly daily. I thank God for the strength I had.
I remembered on the day I took my Advanced Accounting exam, I met Ms BH who was my interpreter, for another consultation in the school library. She saw me practising diligently on my weak topic questions. She asked me to stop practising and take a rest. I shook my head. But I finally admitted to her that I was tense. Worried that my cramps might re-appear anytime during my exam and also my ability to finish it on time, and what grade I would get. She told me that she had belief in me that I would be able to get an A. She told me I could do it!
To my surprise, she asked if she could pray for me. I nodded. In a second, her hand was upon my right shoulder, her eyes closed with her mouth moving as she prayed. She didn't sign though. I was awkward despite knowing she's also a christian. I kept my eyes open and silently said my own prayer while being prayed by her. She gave me a pat before she left.
After my exam, I cried as I was mad at myself that I failed to finish the very last question of the paper. It was the topic I had been drilling for two weeks. It was also the topic I drilled on the day itself at the library. I felt wasteful. Nonetheless, I pushed for my next and last paper (Taxation) and yes, I aced it. In the end, I scored a C for Advanced Accounting. Way beyond my interpreter's expectation and mine.
Overall, the only two goals I had been aiming which was to prove to papa that although I was once a falling star, I wanted to show him that I am able to shine once I bucked up. I just wanted to prove him wrong. I didn't want to fail again. I was once bitten, twice shy. I wanted to show that I will forever be the shining star he knows.
Another goal was obviously to do better which I have achieved. I secured an A which I have never got last year. I thank God for recognising my hard work and for the strength He gave me. Without Him, I don't know if I could still better myself. Thanks to everyone for your endless support, prayers and encouragement! (:
